its official. I over did it.
nausea, stomach pains, sore throat, headaches, runny nose, cough, lack of focus.
I pushed myself too hard to do well, and when i stress with how weak my immune system is normally and how prone i am to getting horrible sick I didn't stand a chance. I guess i should be thankful I didn't have to go to a hospital this time. But i feel awful. trying to type up homework and papers and revisions when My head and body feels like I could pass out at any second. so worried at how i am gonna fail. already had a few crying episodes at how I hate that I can't handle stress and how mad I am at myself for getting sick. I don't know how I will make it, but I gotta try. i can't stop working even if I do end up in the hospital again, I can always push through the pain. even if I am on enough medication to knock out a lion. 4 days and I can pass out and sleep for weeks or months if I want. just if there is a god... let me get through the next 4 days let me feel like I did well. That i'm not a failure that always has severe medical problems that keep her from being able to do things other kids can. let me at least finish the work for this today and pass out and wake up tomorrow and do my other work.
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